I have started this post in my head a thousand times over the last couple of weeks, but getting it from my brain to my fingertips to the computer, well, that my friends is actually where this story ends, not where it begins.
I always find it quite amazing how life plays out. Such a typical story for everyone really, not just me. My story is not unique. It starts out much like everyone's does. I am skipping along through my beautiful wonderful rainbows and lollipops life, (because I prefer it that way and am proud of it!) being grateful for everything because that is my answer to happiness, when all of a sudden, God, or the universe, or whoever that whoever is reading this believes in, (because I do not judge!) decides that it is entirely too peaceful and serene and happy, and begins tossing and turning my life upside down, inside out, right side wrong, exposing all the insides, with the frayed raw edges, and the strings I should have cut off, and the mistakes that I tried to cover up, as if they were really no big deal, making the stitched path all crooked and what-not. I sit there all shocked, like I didn't know the story ALWAYS happens this way. But it does because life is not perfect. It is evidently crooked, and messed up, and IMperfect, and that is okay, because out of it seems to come the biggest lessons, and also the biggest blessings of all. As they always say, "When one door closes, (but doesn't it always feel like a big fat slam in the face at the time?!?) another one opens". In order for that to happen though, I have noticed, I always seem to begin that next journey at a fork in the road. THAT is a problem in and of itself, because then I think,
"Oh crap! What if I go right then this-this-and-this could happen...but if I go left then this-this-and-that could happen, and if I go right, then there will be another fork with two more choices, but if I go left, then another fork..."
Oh Dear God, does anyone remember those "Choose Your Own Adventure" books from the 80's??? Yeah, that is like what my brain starts doing...what-if, what-if, what-if...AHHHHH!!! So then I have to just slap myself around a bit and let the shock wear off so that I can formulate some sort of an intelligent thought process.
So I chose to go left. Now I use the left metaphorically because I believe it to be the most controversial path chosen, (and doesn't that sound just like me?!?) The left has brought me to here. Today. Home and sick in my bed. Bummer, but at the same time, a good thing because being forced into rest always seems to work in my favor historically. Some of you may remember this post from September last year. That was a result of some of the same upside-down-fork-in-the-road-life-altering time as well. Anyway, to make a long story short, here is what is happening in our lives right now, in a nutshell. Bryan is no longer working for that company, we have decided to send him back to school to get his RN and make him more valuable in his line of work, He officially became the "Domestic Dude", AKA "House Husband", I decided to go back to work full-time in an industry I have not worked in for 11 years, got a job offer with great pay and benefits, and was hired and started by March 1, Bryan "accidentally" got an interview and a job with Life Flight, (locally) which turns out he can do while still going to school because it's only 2-3 days a week! (and did I mention LOCAL?!) He will start that in the next week or so. We are definitely in an adjustment phase. I work on a computer all day and the last thing I have desired to do is jump on mine, so my blog and Facebook have definitely been neglected. Back are the days of TGIF's, but weekends off with the kids have been super fun, and I am also finished in the evenings by 5, only an hour after kids get home. I definitely questioned myself a lot that first couple of days with a hundred different computer passwords, pantyhose, and days that begin at 5am, but now I am fairly certain we made the right choice...at least for now...until God sees that we are too settled...
Life is certainly never dull here at the Simpson Household. Change is inevitable. Sacrifice is necessary. Blessings are abundant. It is a good life.
