It is so incredibly hard to believe that this eldest child of mine is 14 years old. Where on Earth is the time going? We celebrated with close family and friends on Christmas night with our traditional ham and 6 cheese scalloped potatoes. I took a bunch of pictures, and when I was going back through all of them, I had to do a double take because so many of them were like looking at a snapshot of myself. It is just crazy! This is actually a photo taken on New Year's Eve as she headed out to her first church dance. It was a FABULOUS picture so I picked it! I am anxious to see what this year brings for her.
The following are excerpts from Facebook posts that pretty much sum up what I was feeling, and some sweet messages from others. I thought these would be cool to look back on later. She is an amazing girl. I am so proud of her!
Lori J. Simpson I can hardly believe my first born child is 14 years old today. They brought her out to me in a giant red stocking. My life changed forever. I love the charming talented you lady you have become Marissa! xoxo
Judi Crews Vrieling Merry Christmas to the Simpson family, and Happy Birthday to Miss Marissa!
Kevin Scott Kornegay OMG!!! She is 14 ? WOW!!! Please tell her Happy Birthday from the kids and i, also Merry Christmas!!!
Lori J. Simpson She looked so beautiful tonight in her little knit beret hat and sweater dress. She made me so proud as she interacted and entertained friends and family here for her birthday. She is truly a blessing sent from heaven and I'm one proud Mama. :)
William Holland Tell her Uncle Bill said I love her and a happy birthday.... See you all soon....
Yesterday I woke up and I really just did not want to get out of bed. As I laid there and pouted, (I went to bed angry...don't EVER do this!) I could feel the sun starting to peek through the window shades. With furrowed brow, I thought about how short the weekend always was, and how I should have woken up sooner. WHY was I being so negative??? It was only hurting myself, nobody else. It was only making the weekend even shorter, and less inspiring. There was a list of things I needed to accomplish, let alone wanted to accomplish. But I still laid there, not changing my attitude.
As I was perusing Facebook, I saw an update of a friend who was talking about how everyday is an "Up" day or a "Down" day, and how it is our choice of which we wanted to experience. I pondered his words for a few minutes, and as I did this, I spotted a bag of scrapbook paper that I had set in my bedroom a few weeks ago and had sort-of forgotten about. The bag was actually a bunch of different bags from different stores, purchased at all different times. I had put them all in one large bag... #1 to get them out of the way during a recent onslaught of visitors for the holidays, and #2 to at one point, get them all put in their rightful organized homes for use during a creative moment at a later date. Right then Bryan walked back into the bedroom and I said, "Hey, hand me that bag..." He did so and I proceeded in going through the bags with all the pretty papers and fun stuff I had purchased. I started recalling when, where, and why I had purchased some of them, and was getting a bit giddy! I had forgotten about some of these papers untill I saw them again, right then! AWESOME!
That was it. I was not going to let a stupid little bit of negative stick around and ruin MY time for myself and my family, which is so little these days. I was not going to waste one more second having a "Down" day, when I had the power to change that. I remembered there had been some new Somerset Studio Publications released recently, but because of the holidays and illness I hadn't had a moment to look at any of them. I knew that the kids would thoroughly enjoy a spontaneous trip to the book store, and we could all be together doing this activity. I rallied the troops to get their chores done quickly, we got our poop in a group and headed out to Hastings. They have a very nice cafe + books + magazines + music which = PERFECT!
I grabbed a mocha with whip cream, sent the kiddos to grab their reading materials, and I settled in with a stack of magazines. As I read through them, made notes, sketches, and got completely inspired, we all sat and had a very nice relaxing family time. After we hung out for quite a while, we decided what we were going to purchase, made our way out and headed home to let the inspiration continue. We basically rented Hastings for $60, and it was worth every inspiring, together-ness dime!
Thank you, inspiration, for making your way into my morning and allowing me to absorb you and use you to completely change my entire negative attitude, and enjoy every piece of my Saturday. Thank you for continuing to bleed into my Sunday, the rest of my week, and possibly my whole month! Thank you for reminding me that I have a reason to get out of bed and experience the joy of my creative family, and my creative self. Thank you inspiration, for touching the creative piece of my soul, that sometimes gets lost in the shuffle.
Well I am attempting to play a bit of "catch-up" here on my blog, so I will be going back in time to talk about some of the happenings around the Simpson household. Don't worry though, I won't be going back to when I completely dropped the ball on blogging and documenting! I am only going back a couple of weeks. :)
So our little "Lexie Lou-who" turned 11 years old on December 18. I can hardly believe that she is getting so big! She celebrated in our standard way, dinner with close family and friends. Her dinner always consists of pork loin, mashed potatoes, and gravy. She got to open her gifts and of course the family gift in the infamous "red birthday box". (This is a tradition that started about 4 years ago and just stuck.)
Lexie requested lemon bars this year instead of a birthday cake, so since that is Marissa's specialty, she made them for her. We let Marissa present the lemon bars with the candles since she was the one that made them.
Earlier that day, I took Lexie to get her nails done. I had been in to get mine done the previous day and she was with me. My nail guy, Vince said to bring her back the next day, (he knew we were in a hurry that day). He said they would do hers for free for her birthday. She was SO excited! She felt pretty special, and she got a pretty blue color, with white flowers on the ring fingers.
They grow up so fast! It is so amazing to watch and even more amazing to experience. I love this child. She has so much spunk! I wrote this post to herin late June. That still sums up this girl for now. I am so super excited to see what this 11th year has in store for her. Love you, Lex! :) xoxo
It is always interesting how looking on the past has a way of sparking a bit of positive motivation for the future. I am not sure if it is just a "me" thing, or if other people feel that way too. I hear quotes about not "living in the past", and I totally believe that to be true, but the simple act of reflecting seems to be quite healthy.
As I sit here in reflection of 2011, I am thinking about my "One Little Word" that I picked, (you can view that here). I am thinking about how it worked for me, and how I maybe could have improved, (I always think that!). I am thinking about how I incorporated it into my daily life. I did a pretty good job at doing a lot of what I planned. It didn't all occur at once, it happened at lots of different times throughout the year, but I do feel like I did "Live".
I didn't let work get to me as much as I had done the year before, although that does continue to be a challenge a lot of the time. Towards the end of the summer I got a new boss that I absolutely love. I made some good progress at work and did earn another promotion. The new job that I did throughout the summer was quite fulfilling. The promotion did require me to travel, but I actually quite enjoyed that part of the job! I got to see parts of Idaho that I had never really seen before, and now appreciate the beauty of my state so much more.
Besides traveling for work, I traveled for pleasure. LOVE that! Traveling is one of my favorite things to do, and believe me if I could, I would do it way more!
I took trips with friends...
I took trips with Bryan...
I took trips with the kiddos...
I do know I had a more positive approach to work and life in general so I have to credit the positive attitude because I honestly believe that attitude is half the battle. One thing I am trying to make an effort to do is be an inspiration to others by being positive. I know I am not happy and positive everyday, but I do try. Always room for improvement there. :)
I would love to say that the year was fabulous and amazing and all rainbows and lollipops, but I would be lying. I had many struggles personally as well as a few professionally, and the two definitely collided to create those struggles.
Bryan was in school and working full time. This was definitely a challenge. I changed a lot of things just to make things work. I changed how I did things, how I reacted to things, and I definitely "chose my battles". The positive out of that situation: I became much more aware of my own temper, lack of patience and habit of overreacting. There was no room for this at all. I learned how to be much more organized, money conscious, and prepared. There were calendars, lists, and meal planning. I learned how to balance a bit more and enjoy the moments at home with my family because there were so few of them, and to leave work at work.
I also had some friendship struggles. Those are never really any fun, especially if they end and you go your separate ways. It is extremely difficult if it is a friend you would consider family, just because it is truly like a death. I think we go through the same steps of the grieving process, because in the end you know it was both of you at fault, and no matter what, they are missed deeply. They are still loved with all your heart. They just can't be your friends anymore. The positive out of that situation: I learned that there are other people around me who care for me, possibly people who I had been neglecting. There are new people to meet. There are always people who could use a friend, and those people could turn out to be some of the most quality people you will ever meet.
Ultimately I know in my heart the struggles have helped me grow personally and professionally. It is so difficult to see the "whys" when you are in full blown crisis mode, but they eventually make their way to the surface. It is how you deal with the struggles that really matters anyway, right? It is what you learn at the time, or even later that truly makes you understand that there was a purpose for the struggle in the first place.
I will continue to grow and fully engage in my word from last year by taking those lessons , some of which I guarantee I am still learning everyday. I will use it to propel me forward into this new year, while embracing the new word for 2012, "Grace". By reflecting on the past, I will try to live up to the new word, and learn the new lessons. I will do my best to become like the word I have chosen, and be an example to others.
a: unmerited divine assistance given humans for their regeneration or sanctification b: a virtue coming from God c: a state of sanctification enjoyed through divine grace
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a:approval, favor <stayed in his good graces> barchaic:mercy, pardonc: a special favor :privilege <each in his place, by right, not grace, shall rule his heritage — Rudyard Kipling> d: disposition to or an act or instance of kindness, courtesy, or clemency e: a temporary exemption :reprieve
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a: a charming or attractive trait or characteristic b: a pleasing appearance or effect :charm <all the grace of youth — John Buchan> c: ease and suppleness of movement or bearing
